Expectations

Tuesday, March 10th went through the Draper Temple with my children, that would include sweet hubby. It was a tender experience the first time with just Paul and I, he was very loving and told me that he understood how much I want to be sealed, but that he was no there yet. But, he was there that night with his arm around me and my dream seemed closer and more real and my expectations of the evening were wonderful.

SOOOOOO, the family night experience had me even more excited because now eveyrone would be in that room together. SOOOOOO, I thought. The game started early on with Dani & Paul trying to ditch us and then I had that little feeling, who will try it next? WeLLLLLL, that would be Cody and Dani. ANNNNNND, sure enough it ended up being only Mikki, Paul, Lander & Jackson in the sealing room. My heart was in my stomach, the disappointment was evident & my thoughts were discouraging; Typical of our family, together yet divided. I walked past the two little turds who were waiting, unaware that there was tension brewing inside their mother. Once again, Paul came to my rescue with his arm around me, reminding me to be grateful that the kids had good attitudes about being there and that we were really all together.

He knows my heart, he loves me so, Sweet Hubby