It is my Duty

Today I was reading a book at my parent's house that has rekindled the duty that I have to my posterity to write down my life, their life, our life.  It is a pretty dang good life and to be honest, as much as I would like to think that I can remember it all, it is inevitable that I will become old & forgetful even more than I am now.
So, instead of rehashing this past year, well 10 years, I will go from here and maybe I will be able to recall some really good stuff in the past.

Day 1 of the rest of my life, or something like that.

I was walking with Dani & Sadie (our dog) & she was going on about things & I was stating my opinion and she told me that we just do not think alike. hmmmm.  Someday I know she will realize how much we are alike and she will be ok with that.  for now, she just wants to be like her dad.  hmmmmm, again. In my opinion, she is the better version of both of us.

We traveled to Idaho this weekend for my nephew Kai's farewell talk in church.  He was very sweet and the spirit was very strong as he spoke of the gratitude he felt in his heart about being called to the Honolulu, Hawaii mission.  It has made him feel closer to Kuku Kane & he is hopeful that he will be able to teach the gospel to our family in Hawaii.  The first Kane grandchild to serve a mission, what an example & what a strong young man.  My prayers go to him, as well as to Matt & Hallie.  I know they will miss him terribly, yet I know they will be blessed & watched over. Thank you Kai for your sweet spirit, I felt it very strong & the talks given today gave me renewed courage and strength to continue to have hope for my family.

Kealani was baptized on Sept . 1 last Saturday.
I was taken back at the strong spirit that was in the room that day.  I knew it was radiating from Dean & his family.  It was very pure & very peaceful.  Hallie and Lana both gave very good talks and I felt very good that day coming from that church in Syracuse, UT.  I am so grateful that I was baptized & that my children are baptized.  I look forward to the day when Paul joins us, as well.  It has been a journey I tell you.  Holding strong.  At least when I get to have experiences like today.  Thank you Kealani.  Thank you Heavenly Father.

Here's Hoping CeCe

FEBRUARY 17, 2012
Sierra is finally here to live with us.
She has come to graduate from high school.
She has come to hopefully secure a better future for herself.

Dani is getting the sister she always wanted.

We are getting our fifth child in our home.

I am so hopeful for this to work out for her.

Her is what I am hoping for:

she stays

she is happy

she works hard

she succeeds

she enjoys herself

she looks to the future

she loves us

she can be herself

she can find something new about herself

she will take risks

she gives me a hug on her own

she can ask me anything

she can see her potential & worth

she is patient with us

I pray this works out for her, not matter what happens.

I am grateful for the opportunity to help her.

I do It for YOU!

Park City Stake Conference March 2012

Brother Tate gave this scripture reference ( 1 Nephi 19: 22-23) 

with the reading challenge to read the Book of Mormon 3 times.

First time: Look for how God deals with his children.

Second time: Look for reference to the Atonement.

Third time: Liken the scriptures unto ourselves.

I am on my 6th day, May Day and I just read 2 Nephi 22.
Powerful Stuff.
Isaiah says what  will be said on that great Millennial Day

And in that day thou shalt say: O Lord, I will praise thee;  though thou wast angry with me thine anger is turned away, and thou comfortedest me.  Behold, God is my salvation; i will trust, and not be afraid; for the Lord JEHOVAH is my strength and my song; he also has become my salvation.  Therefore, with joy shall ye draw water out of the wells of salvation.  And in that day shall ye say:  Praise the Lord, call upon his name, declare his doings among the people, make mention that his name is exalted.  Sing unto the Lord; for he hath done excellent things; this is known in all the earth.  Cry out and shout, thou inhabitant of Zion; for great is the Holy One of Israel in the midst of thee.

I am pretty sure I am not going to be around on that great day, but my hope is that one or many of my posterity will be.  I pray that I can be the mother that I am supposed to be for these children that He has entrusted me.  When they ask me why I make them do this or that and I am going to say,
 "So on that day you or someone you love dearly will exclaim 2 Nephi 22"
AND
so we can live forever in heaven with God and Jesus.
I love the Lord, I love his words and I know that his hand is stretched out still and will be forever until he has gathered as many of God's children as he can.

This Woman's Work

I love the very last blessing of the initiatory in the temple.

It makes me ponder about the things I am here to do,

am I even close to doing them.

I know I was sent here to be a mother.

I am fortunate to have been taught to bring them up in the gospel.

I know if I do my part, with all my heart, might & strength,

He will make up the difference.

I need to be stronger, more disciplined, more loyal.

I can do hard things.

It will be worth it.

I still wonder, am I doing what I was sent here to do?

I can always do better.

Until I have finished my work on the earth.

Love it.

As the song goes by Kate Bush.

Pray God you can cope.
I stand outside this woman's work,
This woman's world.
Ooh, it's hard on the man,
Now his part is over.
Now starts the craft of the father.

I know you have a little life in you yet.
I know you have a lot of strength left.
I know you have a little life in you yet.
I know you have a lot of strength left.

Thank U Little Erin

It is winter break in Park City. In perfect fashion, it is snowing & to make it even better, I came upon the perfect recipe for a day such as this. I had every good intention to snuggle in with my fav hot drink in my cute cup from big erin, with the Jade Dragon Box, but life caught up with me. I stuffed it in, gulped it down, left the book (kindle) & headed out into the blustery day. (Oh I love winnie the pooh, reminds me of the Jackson days in the car his first year). At least I was energized to battle the storm & have something to look forward to on my return. It really is the little things in life that I need to make a little more time for.

cheers little erin for sharing this scrumpdidilyicious treat. xoxo

Ingredients

1 1/2 cups all-purpose flour

• 3/4 cup white sugar
• 1/2 teaspoon salt
• 2 teaspoons baking powder
• 1/3 cup vegetable oil
• 1 egg
• 1/3 cup milk
• 1 cup fresh blueberries
• 1/2 cup white sugar
• 1/3 cup all-purpose flour
• 1/4 cup butter, cubed
• 1 1/2 teaspoons ground cinnamon
• Directions

1. Preheat oven to 400 degrees F. Grease muffin cups or line with muffin liners.
2. Combine 1 1/2 cups flour, 3/4 cup sugar, salt and baking powder. Place vegetable oil into a 1 cup measuring cup; add the egg and enough milk to fill the cup. Mix this with flour mixture. Fold in blueberries. Fill muffin cups right to the top, and sprinkle with crumb topping mixture.
3. To Make Crumb Topping: Mix together 1/2 cup sugar, 1/3 cup flour, 1/4 cup butter, and 1 1/2 teaspoons cinnamon. Mix with fork, and sprinkle over muffins before baking.
4. Bake for 20 to 25 minutes

Individual Worth

Congratulations!

Today is your day.

You're off to Great Places!

You're off and away!

You have brains in your head.

You have feet in your shoes

You can steer yourself

any direction you choose.

You're on your own. (to choose) And you know what you know.

And YOU are the gal who'll decide where to go.

I know that I do have my own divine mission and I am striving to fulfill it.

I am off, to get my young women's medallion. If I got one as a teeny bopper, I have no memory of it and no necklace. I do have my value bracelet, so I did pass off something, possibly at girl's camp.

Anywhooo, Here I Go! Today is the Day!

Value Experience #1:

The following scriptures teach me that I am a daughter of Heavenly Father, who knows me, loves me and is mindful of me:

Psalm 8:4-6 What is man, that thou art mindful of him?...

Jeremiah 1:5 Before I formed thee... I knew thee....I sanctified thee......I ordained thee.....

John 13:34 ....love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.

D&C 18:10 Remember the worth of souls is great in the sight of God;

Abraham 3: 22-23...the Lord had shown unto me, Abraham, the intelligences that were organized before the world was;......thou wast chosen before thou wast born.

JS History 1:1-20 .....I was destined to prove a disturbe and an annoyer of his (satan's) kindom...

He knew me before I was born, and I knew Him. I chose to follow His plan. I chose to follow His son. I accepted the call to come to this earth, in this family, with God given gifts that I am to use to benefit as many people as I can. Now that I am here, He wants me to do all I can do to return to Him, through obedience to his commandments, having faith, believing His Son and believing that he will follow through with His promises. He loves me because I am His daughter, He provided a Way back to Him, "He doeth not anything save it be for the benefit of (me); for he loveth (me), even that he layeth down his own life that he may draw (me) unto him. Wherefore, he commandeth none that they shall not partake of his salvation."( 2 Nephi 26:24), he also gave the gift of the Holy Ghost to be with me on my journey back to Him AND He promises that I can be like Him.

Hopefully I can be an influence for others to come along as well.

What a LOVING, MAGNIFICENT & BRILLIANT (english accent) PLAN!

Oh the Place that I Can Go!

And will you succeed?

Yes! You will, indeed!

(98 and 3 / 4 percent guaranteed.)

KID, YOU'LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!

So...

be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray

or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O'Shea,

you're off to Great Places!

Today is your day!

Your mountain is waiting.

So...get on your way!

GO UTES!

I don't think Jackson realizes what a big deal it is to be offered a full ride scholarship to the UofU, and I am grateful for that. He has continued to be a humble, sweet person through all the offers and awards, which include, first team all conference, 2nd team all state, bengal of the tri (voted best soph student by BHS faculty) and best youth speaker in our ward.

The last one is my, not so humble opinion.

Go Utes and Go Jacky Boy.

Utah Man

I am a Utah man, sir and I live across the green.

Our gang it is the jolliest that you have ever seen.

Our coeds are the fairest and each one's a shining star.

Our yell, you hear it ringing through the mountains near and far.

Who am I, sir, a Utah man am I:

A Utah man, sir, and will be till I die: Ki! Ki!

We're up to snuff: we never bluff.

We're game for any fuss.

No other gang of college men dare meet us in the muss.

So fill your lungs and sing it out shout it to the sky.

We'll fight for dear old crimson for..... a Utah Man am I!

And when we prom the avenue, all lined up in a row.

And arm in arm and step in time as down the street we go.

No matter if a freshman green, or in a senior's gown,

The people all admit we are the warmest gang in town.

We may not live forever on this jolly good old sphere,

But while we do we'll live a life of merriment and cheer.

And when our college days are o'er and night is drawing nigh,

With parting breath we'll sing that song:

A Utah Man am I!

Back in the Saddle Again

I keep falling off this blog horse. It is the first day of 2012 and I am going to try this nag again. I would really love to have a published book by years end to remind me of my ABUNDANT life.

So many things to be grateful for and so many things to improve. It is nice to start the year off going to church and setting my self straight again with God. His arm is stretched out still, how I hope for that same patience with my own children.

Speaking of my brood, healthy, Happy, making Good choices, trying to do their Best, growing up too fast, becoming more independent, keeping me on my toes, testing my patience, typical sibling behavior, Loving us still, at least most of the time, AND Believing.

We finished the year right, together, with people we love!

Thanks to Karen Howell, President Thomas S Monson and Joey (Warhorse),

I am inspired to have Courage to live what I Believe with Joy, EVERY DAY.

Riverside, California Christmas Day 2011

San Clemente Pier at Fisherman's, now that is peaceful joy!